Another Bag, A Visit to TOPS

Well this bag didn't last long! I finished it before I went to my meeting, and my niece snatched it up when I got home! So I had it the total of one hour! Don't blame her though since it matches a black and white dress she has perfectly. I have lots more fabric, and found the cutest fabric at Joanne's to make another one.

The TOPS meeting was a disappointment since it was more of a social club than anything else. All the things that motivate, and make this organization work have been removed by vote from it's members. There are a couple more in town that I'll try while finding a meeting place to open my own. While talking to the area captain after the meeting, who runs a chapter the way it's supposed to be, the members lagging behind acted like I was going to rock their boat, which is not my intent. So upward and onward! I know the interim chapter is out there! Thanks again everyone! You Rock!!

If you're looking to be happy, don't read

I haven't been on for quite a while now, and haven't wanted to because I have had nothing pleasant to say. So if you don't want to be depressed, this may not be the post for you.
I've had some major problems lately with trying to stay upbeat and positive. As you know if you've read in the past, I went vegan, to try and bring my diabetes under control. I thought it was working. Til I went for my blood test results. My doctor sternly told me to stop, showing my numbers to back up all he said. Yes, nothing changed and the things that did were for the worse. I feel defeated. I'm on my last chance to improve, I have 3 weeks left then it's insulin. The way my glucose is going, it's inevitable. I ask myself everyday through tears, if I'm that afraid of failing health, and dying from this disease, why am I still continuing in the same destructive pattern? Why do I give in to the temptations? Why when I should be exercising am I turning into the proverbial couch potato? I don't know the answers. I watch programs on weight loss, where people have such great support systems. I have none. Not my husband, family members, or friends, which I only have 1 of. She's a psychologist, and I'm not going to burden her with my problems after the day to day routine of her job. I've found support systems can't be forced, it's a natural trait of those that truly want to be there for you. I know all the answers, the rules; I founded several chapters in the past of T.O.P.S., (Take off Pounds Sensibly,) and can help others lose. But not myself. I guess there has to be some kind of inner love that motivates one. I don't have it. You'd think my husband, who's neck high in my medical bills, would be supportive. But let's just say, without getting into our personal life, that that's not going to happen. I couldn't get him to walk with me if either of our lives depended on it, which actually mine does. I feel alone, deserted, desperate, and so depressed and scared. So this is why I haven't been here lately. I knew the next time I posted it wouldn't be for fun. This is my life right now, and I'm just plain tired.
I won't burden any of you, my dear friends, with this anymore. My posts from now on will be only when I can muster up something to be happy about. Right now, there is just nothing.

Happy New Year to all of you, my special blog family!! I hope you had a great time, and that this year brings each of you many blessings and happy moments.

New Group!!!

Quilting Nana, of Creative Urges, posted of a new group that gives the incentive to finish Christmas projects for 2010! I was so excited to join, as I have many projects to complete before Christmas! I received Hobby Lobby gift certificates for Christmas this year, and spent the day Saturday stocking up on clearance fabric, and supplies for projects. So when I saw this, I couldn't wait to join! Now maybe, I'll get more accomplished this year! Thanks Quilting Nana! See you on the site!!

Gift Bags For Marwood

Debbie from Marwood, my grand daughters, nephews Jason and Jacob, and Ken, all with some of the 86 bags.

Again this year, our family put together gift bags for those in Marwood Nursing Facility who have no family. Thanks to my family, and with a special donation from my daughter-in-laws parents, who are also friends, we were able to deliver 86 bags! Everyone this year who had no one, received a special gift bag on Christmas morning! What a blessing it is to continue this 20+ year tradition. Marwood looks forward to our call every year, all of us, this is what Christmas is all about.
My grand daughters Tara and Kiley and myself.

My sister Kathy, holding one of the completed bags

Little stuffed animals ready to go to a new home.

Here is my family, participating were from the top, my nephew Jacob, his mother Robyn, my son Chad, myself, Kiley, Kathy, Mom, my daughter in law Jenny, Tara, Jordan, Jason, and my husband Ken on the floor. My sister Marlene took the picture. We had the best time! And I'd like to add a very large thank-you to Ross and Terri. You helped make a lot of people happy this year!

Second Trip to Chiropracter

Well I just got back from my second adjustment, and had my x-rays reviewed. What a mess. I have I believe she called it degenerative arthritis. My neck is a mess, but caught in time to reverse it. Another year it would be iffy. I broke down while in her office, after my adjustment I just started crying. I told her I'm depressed, in such pain, my husband is no help, my house is falling apart, and I'm so tired from not being able to sleep because of the pain. She came and hugged me till I could stop crying, and said that it will take a few adjustments since it's so bad, but she will work at this aggressively to stop the pain and get the arthritis under control. I go back tonight for a free adjustment, so hopefully I can sleep better tonight. She showed me pictures of my spine compared to a healthy one, and I was mortified. What a mess. I love my chiropractor, she's so empathetic, helpful, and truly cares. I also go back on Friday, and one more time next week before she leaves for Christmas vacation. If anyone doubts spinal column health is something overrated, think again. Then head to a chiropractor before it's too late. I think this was my warning to go get it taken care of. Thank God I listened.

Thank God for Chiropractors, And What's With Pajamas!?

I went today for my appointment, and what a great experience! She is just an angel, had me call my Dr. to get my ex-rays so she could save me money on having new ones taken, and did a quick adjustment today til I get them on Monday. I feel a lot better, though sore, as she said I would be. But I can turn my head without any pain, and can actually hold my head up again. The pain in my shoulder is still there, but not as bad. After more thorough adjustments that will be gone also.. So right now I'm so relieved. I know there is a light at the end of this long dark tunnel, and I can't wait to feel good again. Today was a great start!!

Now on to more serious business. I would really like to address women and wearing pajamas in public. You've seen them, they drop their kids off in school wearing them, they go to the post office, the store, anywhere their errands may take them. So here are a few questions my sister and I would like to have the answers to. If you wear yours in public, sorry if I offend!
1. Do you wear the same pj's during the day that you wore to bed last night?
2. If so, do you wash and put on clean underwear? (If not, Ewwww!)
3. If so, when you do the previous, is it really that difficult to just put on some pants?
4. Is the bed you climbed out of clean?
5. What is the proper foot attire with pajamas? Tennies, boots, bedroom slippers? I haven't seen heels though, How do you decide?
6. When did it become stylish to don your nightwear in public!? What's next, negligees?
7. Have you ever looked at the bottom of your pajamas? Do you notice the dirt that has adhered to them?
8. If you keep them on all day, do you change them before you go to bed? Or is that when you put on your jeans? Or do you just go to bed naked and save them for the next morning?
9.How do you differentiate between daytime and night time pajamas? Do you wear your raggy ones to bed then switch to errand pajamas when going out of your house? Or do you wear your good ones to bed and we the public get to view the raggy ones? I mean how are we supposed to know the difference?
10.Are you at all embarrassed to wear your pj's in public? If not, WHY!?

These are just some thoughts from an inquiring mind. In the mean time, I'll stick with wearing mine to bed.